Tired Of Living As An Omega

 

I thought I was going to die like that, but then some text flowed into my mind.

 [Wish repair complete.] [Searching for the soul of a deceased human at the same time in another world. Locating the entity wishing for ‘their own death.’] [Loading……] [A human soul matching the desired conditions has been found.] [Do you agree to change your body?] 

“Change my body? With whom?” 

 

It’s absurd to think they would switch bodies with someone else just because they wished for their next life.

 

When I opened my eyes in surprise, there was a stranger standing there.

 

With light brown colored hair and light brown colored eyes. A mole under his right eye. Handsome yet somewhat fierce-looking.

 

At that moment, I knew.

 

“…Seong Chan-young?”

 

“What are you looking at, punk?”

 

It really was Seong Chan-young. He looked pretty rough around the edges.

 

A transparent barrier, like glass, appeared between me and Seong Chan-young. It resembled being trapped in a glass container.

 

I was curious about how I could meet a character from a novel in person and why I was standing there perfectly fine when I thought I had died, but the text penetrating my mind didn’t allow time for such questions.

 [Do you agree to change your body?] 

“Well, I don’t really want to switch bodies with a stranger out of the blue…”

 

On the other hand, Seong Chan-young immediately responded.

 

“I agree.”

 

“What?”

 

But I was already dead. It doesn’t make sense to switch bodies with a dead person. Seong Chan-young would die.

 

Whether it sensed my hesitation or not, the text displayed the loading icon again, then presented a new response.

 [We accept feedback from the deceased.] [As a solution, we recommend synchronization with another deceased individual.] [Synchronization in progress.] 

“What are you trying to…..”

 

“Do whatever you need to do.”

 

The text didn’t give me any time to wait. It was completely unpredictable. Seong Chan-young was the same. Despite his fierce demeanor, he had the expression of someone who had given up on everything.

 

It was undeniable. It was because every time I barely regained consciousness in the hospital after a few days, my expression in the mirror was exactly the same.

 

“Wait a minute. Seong Chan-young died in the original story, didn’t he?”

 

If that’s the case, what’s the point of swapping bodies?

 

As I pondered this, consciousness faded, and then my eyes opened again.

 

‘This is…’

 

It was someone else’s memories. I found myself seeing life through someone else’s perspective.

 

I glimpsed into Seong Chan-young’s life story, which I had never seen in the novel.

 

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“I’m lonely.”

 

From the moment he was born, Seong Chan-young had many things but never received the affection he desired, always starving for love.

 

Born an omega in a household where only alphas were born, he was neglected by his indifferent family. Though it didn’t show externally, there was no one within the family who cared for Seong Chan-young.

 

‘If I were born an alpha instead of an omega, would my family have loved me then?’

 

He couldn’t change his inherent traits. Seong Chan-young blamed himself. Deep-rooted self-hatred, coupled with a lack of affection, poisoned his heart. That poison solidified when Seong Chan-young was ultimately diagnosed as an omega.

 

“I’m an omega?”

 

He couldn’t forget his family’s cold reaction when he presented the final traits of his genetic testing. His parents hid this fact with indifferent expressions, instructing him to pretend to be a beta. His sisters, who were just beta, couldn’t hide their disappointment.

 

There was nowhere for his agonized heart to pour out. His grandfather, Chairman Seong, was too distant to Seong Chan-young. It was reasonable not to expect Chairman Seong, who was as busy as his parents, to pay attention to his situation.

 

“Baek Do-jun, I have a question.”

 

“What is it?”

 

“Do you love me?”

 

“What nonsense is this? You don’t even love me. Why would I love you when you treat me like a servant?”

 

“…….I see. I knew it.”

 

Even his fiancé, Baek Do-jun, hated Seong Chan-young. Although he knew it was the expected outcome, Seong Chan-young still felt disappointed.

 

‘There isn’t a single person around me who loves me.’

 

With no one by his side who truly loved him, Seong Chan-young’s already twisted heart became completely disoriented. Isolated psychologically, Seong Chan-young slowly rotted.

 

His originally sensitive and irritable personality became even more malevolent. Seong Chan-young indulged in malice while his internal loneliness grew, yearning for affection.

 

‘I wish someone loved me very much.’

 

Seong Chan-young didn’t love himself. So he was always hungry for love. He hoped that someone who would love him would appear, but he couldn’t see him no matter how long he waited, so he took action.

 

‘I’ll just have to find someone to love me.’

 

Unfortunately, Seong Chan-young had no doubt that he would be happy if he did so. He didn’t even know it was wrong because no one had ever healed his twisted and thorny heart.

 

Perhaps due to the complex of not being born with alpha traits, Seong Chan-young obsessed particularly on alphas. He pursued several alphas, but most of them didn’t want to be swayed by Seong Chan-young’s background. He didn’t want fake affection. It couldn’t fill the void in Seong Chan-young’s broken heart.

 

Baek Do-jun, Chae Yoon-chan, Joo Tae-kang, Yoo Yi-seo. Seong Chan-young’s obsession on these four alphas was also ultimately due to his complex. He resented Seo Eun-soo, who was his polar opposite. Being an omega and burdened by the affection he couldn’t receive, Seong Chan-young envied Seo Eun-soo.

 

‘I envy Seo Eunsu.’

 

Envy turned into jealousy and then hatred. Seong Chan-young, long submerged in his own agony, had a narrow perspective.

 

‘I have to take those alphas away from Seo Eun-soo.’

 

And he hoped the affection Seo Eun-soo received would be directed toward him. Having never been properly loved or loved by anyone, Seong Chan-young recklessly pursued alphas. Baek Do-jun, who despised him, used their engagement to keep him tethered, while Chae Yoon-chan, Joo Tae-kang, and Yoo Yi-seo were subjected to his stalking and daily gifts.

 

The alphas despised Seong Chan-young for his abnormal behavior. Seong Chan-young’s struggles to receive love only resulted in actions that were incomprehensible from a normal perspective.

 

“Stop it, Seong Chan-young! You’re out of your mind!”

 

“Do you hate me?”

 

“Put yourself in our shoes. Would you like someone approaching you like this?”

 

“I… I…”

 

“You’re disgusting, Seong Chan-young. Do you even realize how pathetic you look?”

 

“I… I…”

 

He just wanted to be loved.

 

It would have been nice if he could have stopped there. However, there was no one to stop him.

Seong Chanyoung’s life trajectory had already made him a complete outcast.

 

He already hated himself, so this time, the hatred leaked outside. And the target was Seo Eun-soo.

 

‘Without you, Baek Do-jun, Yoo Yi-seo, Chae Yoon-chan, and Joo Tae-kang might have liked me.’

 

It was an unreasonable conclusion, but Seong Chan-young believed it like the truth and tormented Seo Eun-soo. He even attempted to kill him, becoming the villain.

 

“You… are truly beyond redemption.”

 

Eventually, Seong Chan-young met a dreadful end at the hands of alphas trying to protect Seo Eun-soo. With his household ruined and himself in a miserable state, Seong Chan-young finally realized his mistakes and regretted them.

 

Before taking his own life, Seong Chan-young hoped.

 

“In the next life… no, I wish to disappear like this.”

 

He didn’t want to be born as a human. That was Seong Chan-young’s wish.

 

The people who hated him were right. Seong Chan-young was a hopeless mess. Even at this point, the emptiness emanating from his heart didn’t disappear, and he still didn’t understand what love was.

 

With that Seong Chan-young died.

 

“Cough!”

 

And surprisingly, Seong Chan-young regressed.

 

He returned to the time before his heart shattered, back when he was still seen as contemptible by Seo Eun-soo and the alphas who admired him from afar.

 

“Why…?”

 

If Seong Chan-young’s heart hadn’t shattered, he might have seen this as an opportunity for a new life and made an effort for it. But Seong Chan-young was tired and exhausted. Hating himself enough to want to let go, he wanted to end his meaningless life.

 

‘I have no confidence to live.’

 

Seong Chan-young’s choice once again was death. He vowed to erase himself from this world.

 

And so, Seong Chan-young killed himself once again.

 [Synchronization complete.] 

Coincidentally, the date and time of Seong Chan-young’s death matched exactly with the moment I took my last breath.

 

And our wishes were exact opposites.

 

Seong Chan-young desired death, while I wished for survival.

 [Do you agree to change bodies?] 

Seong Chan-young’s physical form still had a long life ahead. On the contrary, my body was already dead. If we changed bodies, both Seong Chan-young’s and my wishes could be fulfilled.

 

“…I agree.”

 

I wanted to live. This was my choice.

 

“If possible, please erase some of the painful memories as well.”

 

Seong Chan-young also calmly accepted my choice, but before disappearing, he requested to have painful memories removed. The peculiar text accepted that as well.

 [Accepting the request of the deceased.] [Manipulating the memories of both deceased individuals to prevent the outcome of failed wish repairs.] 

As a result, both Seong Chan-young and I either forgot or misunderstood the circumstances that led to our deaths. That’s why we have now arrived at this door.

 

After examining both my memories and Seong Chan-young’s, we once again found ourselves in the blank space with General.

 

“But…”

 

There was a lingering question.

 

“Seong Chan-young, how did you possess Moon Gyeongsik to come find me?”

 

At my question, Seong Chan-young shrugged his shoulders.

This must be why they say "Don't Open The Pandora's Box...."