Tired Of Living As An Omega

 

Seong Chan-young, who hesitated to answer my question, finally answered, “I didn’t want to die.”

 

“What?”

 

“You heard about how memories were manipulated to prevent a failed wish, right?”

 

“Yeah, I heard.”

 

My memories had been swapped out from the dramatic moment of being discharged from the hospital to the moment of taking my last breath. The memories of pain and suffering, which I wanted to rid myself of, disappeared, replaced by the peaceful and happy routine after recovery.

 

Seong Chan-young wiped his face with a bitter expression.

 

“My memories were from right after the regression until I committed suicide. When the memories of the excruciating pain that made me give up on life were erased, I was the only one left with the stubborn obsession.”

 

“…”

 

“…I’m sorry.”

 

The sight of Seong Chan-young, unable to meet my eyes and confessing the truth, was pitiful and miserable.

 

Though the intention was to erase the pain and provide comfort during the process of fulfilling wishes, it seemed to have become a catalyst that dragged Seong Chan-young back to the time when he was consumed by ugly jealousy.

 

“That’s when I didn’t want to die and desperately wanted to return to my body somehow.”

 

“So you possessed Moon Gyeong-sik’s body?”

 

“Right. But… it seemed like another wish was repaired during that process.”

 

“Another wish?”

 

It was a surprising story. 

 

“Someone made a wish besides us.

So I was able to run back into my world and search for you before I was sentenced to complete death with your body.”

 

Could the strange and eerie Black Hands that could manipulate things be a result of another wish?

 

“….What was that wish?”

 

“It was, ‘I want to live a life without being manipulated. To start everything from the beginning.'”

 

“To start everything from the beginning…”

 

So that’s how Seong Chan-young was able to come back. Resetting to the beginning of every story unfolding in the original work meant no character should be omitted. Naturally, even the antagonist Seong Chan-young, were included.

 

Bringing back Seong Chan-young’s body was not enough. So it seemed that they brought back the real Seong Chan-young’s soul.

 

“But who made that wish… I think I know who it was, but…”

 

I decided to put that story aside for now. Our conversation with Seong Chan-young was urgent.

 

“So, why did you possess Moon Gyeong-sik’s body?”

 

“…I think it was because of my longing for alpha traits. And even though I lost my memories, it seems to have been because of the lingering pain of unrequited love that I couldn’t accept even when I was an omega.”

 

“Hmm.”

 

‘Maybe because he would have a stronger rejection if he possessed an alpha… Was it because of that?’

 

I could understand. At the same time, I couldn’t help but wonder if the type of affection Seong Chan-young desperately sought after possessing an alpha was actually something different.

 

“In the end, it became even more horrific. I made you experience something terrible. How awful it must have been for two alphas to compete with each other.”

 

Looking at Seong Chan-young, who was slumped over with shoulders sagging, I felt both disheartened and bitter. Seong Chan-young, expressing remorse with a lack of venom, seemed powerless, like a venomous insect without its sting.

 

When I saw Seong Chan-young with crazed eyes and swinging a knife, I never would have imagined that he would now resemble a dying worm.

 

“Yah.”

 

“What?”

 

“Did you really love alphas like Baek Do-jun, Yoo Yi-seo, Joo Tae-kang, and Chae Yoon-chan?”

 

“You couldn’t forget them even after death, right? So naturally…”

 

“Even now that you’ve regained your memories, are you still so tormented by not being able to see the alphas you had a crush on?”

 

“… “

 

Seong Chan-young could only bite his lip in response to my question. Despite regaining lost memories due to the wish being granted, there was no sign of the affectionate obsession with alphas that had been evident in Seong Chan-young before.

 

Seong Chan-young, who had always hungered for affection, must have felt more resentment than love towards them and towards me, who received their attention. How desperate must it have been for Seong Chan-young to see another soul receiving the love he never had, using his own body.

 

“… I don’t know.”

 

That was the answer in itself. As Seong Chan-young said he didn’t know, there was a sense of relief on his face. It was refreshing to see him let go of something he couldn’t have.

 

I no longer felt resentment or pity towards such Seong Chan-young. Only empathy washed over me.

 

“Seong Chan-young, come here.”

 

“Why? You’re not going to hit me again, are you?”

 

Perhaps it was because he had already been hit once, Seong Chan-young took on a frightened expression, protecting himself as if expecting another blow.

 

“Do you see me as a thug? That was your fault in the first place.”

 

“T-then why are you coming closer?”

 

“For this.”

 

“… What?”

 

I hugged Seong Chan-young tightly. Perhaps because we met as souls rather than bodies, I couldn’t feel his warmth despite the close contact.

 

However, I could gurantee that this would be an incredibly warm gesture for someone who had been destroying themselves through acts of malice, worn down by loneliness.

 

It was something the foolish villain had wished for, even if it meant reaching his dying moments without ever receiving it: solace for their troubled heart.

 

“Why… why are you doing this?”

 

“Whether reincarnation exists or not, if there’s a next life, live it happily as if you’re guaranteed.”

 

“You… “

 

“Don’t foolishly wield your sword against innocent people, and don’t try to fill the void in your broken heart with fleeting affection from others.”

 

Live the life you want to live.

 

“…”

 

“I hope you will no longer remain an ugly, unsympathetic villain.”

 

Like how I wanted to remain the kind youngest in our family until the end.

 

I hope you are now at peace, even if you look different, as you look on the other side of the mirror.

 

“Eugh, sniff… euhhh….”

 

Instead of a response, thick tears poured down like heavy raindrops. For a while, Seong Chan-young held onto me, whom he once hated to the point of killing him, and cried softly.

 

Somewhere, that strange notification sounded again, from someone unknown.

 [Successful completion of wish repair.] 

Despite the discord, the twists and turns, and all that we’ve been through to survive, there was still a chance for us to have a happy ending.

 

The space that showed memories collapsed, and in front of the broken pieces of the old door, I heard my sister’s voice.

 [I’m relieved, my little brother.] 

“…noona.”

 [Now, I can truly leave. That was the wish Go Yeo-ri wanted.] 

With those words as the last, the figure of General crumbled away like grains of sand. My sister, who vanished before I could even grasp her, left me tears in the wake of her empty wish.

 

— You know, Yeo-woon ah?

 

— What?

 

— That white dogs serve as a guide, safely escorting the souls of the deceased to the afterlife.

 

It must have been no coincidence that my sister’s wish, filled with my empty happiness, appeared in the form of General.

 

“Goodbye, noona.”

 

Now, I hope my sister was also free.

 

The same went for our family. I didn’t think I was abandoned. It was possible because it was my will to ensure they didn’t suffer. Even if I faced death as myself until the end, I resolved not to regret or cling to the choices and outcomes caused by my decisions.

 

The space before us, where the truth was revealed, gradually crumbled away.

 

In the space where light particles fluttered, Seong Chan-young smiled with a relaxed expression and whispered to me.

 

“Thank you. And… please take care of Moon Gyeong-sik and the people who will stay by your side because of me.”

 

“You’re leaving?”

 

“Yeah. This was the predetermined end, after all. I’ve already died twice. I’ll leave, hoping for another life.”

 

With a bright smile, Seong Chan-young eventually turned into a mere flickering light and disappeared into the distance.

 

“

Farewell

, ‘Seong Chan-young’.”

 

While handing over his name to me.

 

“……Alright. Farewell.”

 

I accepted the name, which carried the weight of precious life, and closed my eyes quietly.

 

When the space for wish repair completely disappeared and I opened my eyes again, what I saw were the alphas who were worried about me.

 

“Chan-young ah!”

 

“Are you okay, Chan-young ah?”

 

“Seong Chan-young! We were so worried because you wouldn’t wake up!”

 

“I’m so relieved that you woke up.”

 

“We thought you were going to die.”

 

It was a familiar hospital scene. But I could smile brightly because I was no longer afraid.

 

“Were you all waiting for me?”

 

“What are you saying…! Because you wouldn’t wake up, we, ugh!”

 

Before Chae Yoon-chan could mumble something tearfully, someone quickly stuffed a banana into his mouth.

 

It was the hand with the bandage, just like mine.

 

“Seo Eun-soo ssi!”

 

“I’m glad we both woke up safely, Chan-young ssi. Huh?”

 

The moment I saw Seo Eun-soo, I was overwhelmed by uncontrollable emotions and hugged him tightly.

 

“Um, excuse me. Chan-young ssi. Ugh. I’m really happy, but… I’m still injured….”

 

Oh right. Seo Eun-soo was really stabbed by the knife wielded by Seong Chan-young.

 

“S, sorry.”

 

“…No, it’s okay. I didn’t tell you to stop hugging me right away though.”

 

The pursed red lips and the soft murmuring were loud enough in my ears. I chuckled softly at Seo Eun-soo’s honest desire.

 

“It’s okay. Let’s just focus on getting discharged together soon.”

What a beautiful wrap up... T-T