I Became the Childhood Friend Who Commits Sui**de

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Monday.

The start of a new week.

“I’ll call the roll.”

The Monday of Class 2A was just like any other.

Except for one thing.

“Yu Hana. Yu Hana?”

Everyone’s gaze shifted to the empty seat.

Most were indifferent.

Except for her only friend, Shin Woo.

“Hmm…”

The homeroom teacher said nothing in particular.

She simply checked the attendance list in a matter-of-fact way.

The academy is unlike an ordinary school.

No one is going to cover your absence without permission.

It’s solely your own choice and responsibility.

In the end, Hana didn’t show up until the classes were over that day.

Shin Woo called her every break, but there was no reply.

He was anxious.

Especially since she had looked unwell when they bumped into each other yesterday and mentioned she was going to the infirmary.

Ultimately, Shin Woo asked the most reliable person he could find for help.

“Can you check on Hana’s condition?”

“Sure. But I think there are plenty of girls who would help you out.”

The girl who heard Shin Woo’s request responded nonchalantly.

Kyung Ah.

A girl with brown hair and glasses.

To put it nicely, she looked intellectual; to put it bluntly, she looked plain.

Her only noteworthy trait was being the class representative.

That’s why Shin Woo asked her first.

Kyung Ah meticulously packed her school bag before saying.

“Alright. I’ll check it out.”

“Really? Thanks!”

“Don’t get the wrong idea. I’m only doing this as the class rep. It’s not like I’m doing this because I’m fond of you or anything.”

“Of course not!”

Whether she understood or not, her carefree smile felt rather annoying.

Kyung Ah sighed and exited Class 2A.

Yu Hana.

*

‘I’m the class representative.’

Being a class representative is no trivial matter.

It means it’s not an easy position.

It has more significance than simply giving out special credits.

The representative leads and manages around thirty kids in the class.

In other words, she can be considered a true leader.

At least, that’s how Kyung Ah sees it.

Maybe she thinks this way to fill a lack of self-esteem and self-love.

Whatever the reason, Kyung Ah gives her best in her representative duties.

So, checking on a classmate who has skipped class is only natural.

“Here it is.”

She checked the nameplate and nodded.

Since the academy has so many students, the dorm is spacious.

It was a bit confusing, but she thought it was worth finding it safely.

Kyung Ah paused in front of the door for a moment.

About Yu Hana.

She is not a very noticeable person.

Actually, in a way, she stands out.

The academy’s one and only inept.

The title holds more weight than one would think.

Typically, even the least talented student has at least some minimal ability.

Even if it’s just being able to spark a flame with a lighter using their fingers.

However, Hana lacks even that.

She is indeed capable but hasn’t awakened her abilities.

The worst condition, leading her to be on the outskirts.

So, Hana clung even more to her only friend, Kim Shin Woo.

It was a vicious cycle.

Shin Woo is at the center of the academy, unlike Hana.

As Hana clung closer, the gazes of female students targeting Shin Woo became more hostile.

As a result, she gradually distances herself from the group.

Yu Hana clings desperately to her only support, Kim Shin Woo.

It seemed tragic for Kyung Ah, who had no interest in Shin Woo.

The only way to break the vicious cycle was for Hana to distance herself from Shin Woo.

Fortunately, for now, there didn’t seem to be any major issues.

The only trouble was the delinquent Hong Yeonhwa playfully making life difficult for Hana.

But this situation felt like a ticking time bomb.

If Hana didn’t stop her blind reliance on Shin Woo, the problems lurking below the surface would erupt.

What would happen then, not even Kyung Ah could predict.

This wasn’t something she could resolve on her own.

‘For now, let’s check on Hana’s condition.’

Clearing her thoughts, Kyung Ah knocked on the door.

No answer came.

…Is she not home?

Worried she might not have heard, she knocked harder and called out.

“Hana? Are you in there?”

Again, silence.

Skipping class and not being home at all?

Curious, Kyung Ah tilted her head before placing her ear to the door.

Focusing, she thought she heard something.

Shuffling noises.

Along with that, there was the sound of labored breathing.

“What…? What’s going on?”

Something feels off.

Since there were signs of movement, it was certain someone was inside.

But why wasn’t there any response?

Kyung Ah pondered quietly.

Now that she knew Hana was inside, she couldn’t just leave like this.

If knocking and calling don’t work…

“I guess I have no choice.”

I have to use my ability.

If caught using it inside the academy, I’d get a warning.

But as a class representative, my duty is more important.

Kyung Ah took off her glasses and focused.

Slowly, she passed through the door and the wall, revealing the scene inside the dorm.

Indeed, Hana was there.

Sitting at the kitchen table.

Her arms kept moving, so she wasn’t asleep.

But she was facing away, so Kyung Ah couldn’t see what she was doing.

Her ability couldn’t pierce through living beings.

Why was she awake but not responding?

Was she listening to music with earbuds?

Not entirely sure, but it didn’t seem like it.

A sense of unease hung in the air.

It felt essential that she couldn’t just leave it like this.

That foreboding instinct.

“Ugh… Why am I…?”

Sighing, Kyung Ah narrowed her eyes at the doorknob.

And then, a red laser shot out from her pupils, melting the doorknob.

It was a power she rarely used because it seemed too ridiculous.

She sealed it away after being teased about it in middle school.

Anyway, she successfully unlocked the door with her eye laser.

Kyung Ah cautiously opened the door and stealthily slipped inside.

Hana was engrossed in something, completely unaware of her entrance.

As Kyung Ah got closer, the shuffling sounds became clearer.

‘…Ugh!’

And then, an intense smell hit her.

The metallic scent of blood.

It was the smell of iron.

…Wait a moment.

No way?

Suppressing her trembling heart, Kyung Ah reached Hana’s back.

Then, she heard a tiny mumble.

“…Something’s wrong. Why can’t I… It shouldn’t be like this…”

This is serious.

I feel like I might wet myself from fear.

Kyung Ah had never experienced a situation like this before.

She forced herself to hold it together.

As the representative.

She extended her arm, hesitantly tapping Hana on the shoulder.

Tap, tap.

“…Oh?”

“Hana, it’s me.”

Finally noticing Kyung Ah, Hana turned her head.

What she revealed made Kyung Ah swallow hard.

The wooden table was stained with blood, with bright red marks everywhere.

Hana held a cutter knife in one hand.

And on her other wrist were the scars from self-harm.

An overwhelming number of wounds.

*

“W-what are you doing…?”

Huh?

Kyung Ah tilted her head.

It was a face she had never seen before.

“Who are you?”

“…It’s me, Kyung Ah. Don’t you know me?”

“Oh, you’re the representative.”

Hana immediately nodded upon hearing the name.

She looked exactly like the description in the original work.

But, why is the class representative here?

She had clearly locked the door.

Since seeing my corpse would be a disaster, I made sure to check everything carefully.

How did she get in?

“That’s not the point right now! You need to answer my question! What are you doing?!”

Whoa!

I jumped at her sudden shout.

And what do you mean, “What are you doing?”

Can’t you see?

I turned to follow the representative’s gaze.

The state of the table was appalling.

It was a mess with bloodstains, there’s no way you could eat here anymore.

And in my line of sight, there was an arm dripping blood from many wounds.

…Wait.

Why am I like this?

Was I cutting my wrist with a cutter knife?

“…Oh.”

I remembered.

At first, I was trying to commit suicide with a tie.

The pain felt like pleasure.

Even chronic pain, which should be troubling, felt strangely happy.

I was so happy my brain felt like it was going to freeze.

It was like drowning in an ocean of bliss.

But that was so good, I felt the urge to sink deeper.

Honestly, I still feel a bit dazed.

In any case, I was trying to find out why pain turned into pleasure.

So, in other words, this is kind of an experiment.

The results of the experiment are…

Hmm… What was it?

My head feels foggy, so I can’t remember too well.

I think it was happy at first.

But as time passed, it felt more painful.

Well, from the outside, I frowned a bit.

But it wasn’t that serious.

From what I can tell, my artery seems to be fine.

If this were a genuinely severe situation, I would’ve either bled out or fainted.

It’s just a throbbing pain, a little stinging, that’s all.

“By the way, what’s the class representative doing here at this hour?”

“This hour? It’s Monday! Classes have already finished!”

“What…? Really? Am I on a hidden camera?”

With a complicated expression, the representative looked at me.

Guess she got kind of engrossed in her experiment.

Thinking of it, she looked tired too.

“You… What is going on? Why are you doing this?!”

Why, you ask?

That’s a simple question.

“I want to be happy…?”

“…”

The representative bit her lip.

Her expression twisted greatly.

As if she had self-harmed herself.

“Hana, you’re not…”

“Ah! Anyway, don’t tell Shin Woo. Okay? Got it?”

“…”

If he finds out, it’ll be such a hassle.

If I want to quietly commit suicide, it absolutely shouldn’t come to light.

I awkwardly smiled while pointing at my wrist.

Looking earnestly up at the representative.

At that moment.

A single tear fell from her eye.

…Huh? Suddenly?

Here?

Why?