Chapter 16: truth comes out(3)
" my life is full of questions like why ,what and how my life is like this. Is there anyone, somebody who is also like me ,but I don't see anyone, why God hate me so much, what have I done to be hate by him that much, how do I know about my sin . I always help the orphan to help them and take special care so they don't feel lonely like me. But you know later these students call me in front of me that ' I just want them to worship me ,so I take special care of them .why ,even if I do good work with good will they hate me , so I stopped doing that ,still i can't stop myself from giving secretly money without them knowing.and in this period of time I came across the book ' my bossy wife ' and started reading it.i love your character like you don't care about anything first but you have everything family,love, friend, collegue, who truly care about you , who truly love you ,and so much i can't explain it, but I really really really envious of you. But don't worry I won't take anything away from you.that night when I finished reading, i hadn't eaten for about 4 days and feel weak all over my body and exhaustion take over me , but before it take I heard some noise and saying ' fire' and feel hot all over my body.then i thought myself that time that God even give me a tragic death like that i can't even scold him. How ironic right. Then I don't feel anything and drifted to sleep.when I wake up find myself in this environment. Here they give me many love , ithought I can't have family again but I have now, but all shattered when the thought came to me that this family and family members are not for me to begin with. They are the original owners ,and I stole her identity."
At this moment meis aura is full of loneliness,deep ,grave ,which gave dark vibe, if you just push or encourage her she will willfully give her life at that moment with moment of flash.
She exactly looks like a broken angel in her white dress. She looks fragile like made of glass ,which will break if you touch it even slightly.
You have to think hundred time before you touch her. She is broken porcelain doll.
At this moment Su jia come to one realisation that this situation,and this moment shf don't want to ever experience again in her whole life.
She knows her character,she is not like this of protective of someone.bit this moment the protectiveness is like deep graved in her heart in suppressed and now outbursting out suddenly.
She wants to go to her world and protect with her might.anyone humiliated her in past she wants avenge her.she don't want her to shed a single tear from her obsidian eye which always shine like star which now looks like dimmed a lot .it is the lifeless again.looks like she has nothing to live for.
Looking her her heart aching terribly but she have no heart problem. She have to check her body in her quarters.
But one thing for sure she take the front persson of her sister already.and very protective of her.
She crouched down and looked at her.abd touched her cheek briefly.
This sudden action bring back mei from her emotional depression to present moment.and looked up.noticing big sisters reaction she wiped her tears and said " oh don't worry sister , i won't take your position because I know my position" said self-deprecate smile and continued " i won't ask for your anything,also don't pity me after hearing this. I'm not the only one in whole universe for horrified fate. "
Su jia listened attentively to her then said with a smile " didn't you say you already solved the problem of this type in your world by your power and I don't think this type of fate is present in our world except you , so only one in this universe having horrible fate."
Hearing this sentence Xiao mei' s head hunged lower and tear started forming in her eyes. She began to formulate the situation that was going to happen.Su jia will say hurtful things to her according to her cold personality. She knows from start that she should not saying about her past to her but she already tired having suppressed emotions from her previous life but she also anticipated the outcome of mocking from hearing.she prepared herself for the upcoming hurtful words and said herself ' mei you bring this to yourself, not everyone can accept the outcome, you have to get used to this , but still it hurts like hell.ypu have to make your heart still mei.you can do this.'
Su jia don't know what is going inside mei' s head and said" but why do i need to pity you ? I think I should pity them who abandoned you right?"
Mei really had not anticipated the outcome.she stared blankly at jia for while and asked " why do you think so?"
Su jia sat down on carpet for giving rest to her legs and after settle down she said "why can't I ?they lose a chance to gain a loving family member, also the one is brilliant type.if I may be to ask i would adapt easily, because because of her i can have profit in many things also the pride will increase doubly in the society.is there any lose , i don't think so?"
Mei observed the face of jia and confirmed that she is literally telling truth not just convincing her.
Realising this she stared wide eyed to her .
And jia truly never be able see this big eyes can be any bigger than this.
Thinking this she raised an eyebrow at her like asking 'what'.
But mei don't say anything just stared at her constantly.
Because in book it clearly stared that Su jia the female protagonist is very cold, ruthless,and devoid of any emotions in her, after meeting with male protagonist she began to feel emotion .
But what she see is exactly opposite.
Don't she only have emotions like human she can also can console anyone.
In this phase mei leaned that books are can't be trusted without experiencing it.
Although Su jia didn't directly praise her but she can understand cold peoples way of talking things .and Su jia said it very seriously.
Mei s depressed mood instantly lightened and thought seriously about her sentence.
Su jia said again with some thinking that " although you said no one cared for you but how about the one working for you , your subordinates.do you think they didn't want a boss like you.also like our five fingers can't same like this the people in the world is also not same.i know your life is full of pain but there is must be some people who admire you like talented individuals ".