The Werewolf King's Bride

(From Blue's Perspective)

Hey Dem,

It's been just one day, but I miss you so much. I am sorry I cried a bit today. I will try not to anymore. How are you doing now? Is everything good? Give me a broad explanation if you have time, or just keep it short.

If you really have much time in hand, try to tell me as many things as possible. I want to hear everything.

Luc comforted me today and invited me to hang out with him and Ruby. I refused to go today and said I will go tomorrow. I have too much work in hand today. I will finish my work early tomorrow, or tell Reece that I am taking a break.

Calix was trying to cheer me up today because I was in a bad mood. Let me apologize again for being so miserable when you have gone for just two months. I am acting too weak, ain't I? I know I am; I hate myself for it.

I invited Perita and Calix to have lunch with me. The chef made watermelon juice, broccoli, rib's eye, tortilla soup and many more things. It was like a feast, you know. I could not eat too much, but I tried everything. You see, the chef worked very hard on the dishes. If I did not try all of them, he would feel bad.

Don't worry, I have not forced myself to eat. I skipped breakfast today, so I was pretty hungry.

Perita and Calix ate a lot, so the chef was very happy. He always becomes very happy when someone eats his food a lot.

After that, I worked a bit. I practiced swordsmanship in the afternoon as usual. I am at the last step of being a proper swordswoman now. I am excited to finish it, you know. It will be a matter of pride then.

I have had my dinner just now. I ate a lot at lunch, so I was not that hungry. I had some broccoli, chicken salad and lemon water.

You know, I have been thinking lately but could not mention it to you before… It's been almost two years of our marriage. If my power is awakened, let's have a kid as soon as possible. I mean, you said it's okay. Of course, I will hear what you say first. After you come back, let's talk about it.

That said, Perita gave me a gift today; some seeds. She said they are a special type of seeds and one plant will grow from all of them. I think one seed will grow one branch and they will kind of swirl around each other. I am just guessing it. She doesn't know the name of it. Anyway, I will plant them now.

I will tell you more about it later.

Goodbye now. I love you, honey. I love you so much. Write to me when you get time. And goodnight.

Yours,

Blue

I kissed the letter before putting it in the envelope. The bird was waiting on the window frame.

I rubbed its feathers affectionately. She liked it when I did that. Then, I tied the envelope to its leg.

"Take it to Dem. Be careful on your way, hm?"

It took off quickly and I waved it goodbye. After it left, I did not have much to do. So, I decided to plant the seeds.

I brought a book from the library about how to plant seeds in a tub. I never did it before, so I did not know. I told the maids to bring me a good tub to plant the seeds and some soil. They brought a very big one even though I told them it was not a big tree.

When I sorted everything out and sat on the floor of the balcony, I noticed they had brought everything I needed, including a pair of gloves, water, soil, a tub, and some notes from the gardener.

"Hmm, let's see what I have to do first."

The books said to have my seeds and choose a container first. I had both of them. Then, I needed to add a seed starting mix. I did not notice it before, but then I did. The maids got them for me too. They were needed to prevent fungal diseases.

I started by adding water to my starting mix. Thankfully, there was not too much water added when I squeezed a handful of the mixture to check. When I pressed it, there were only a few drops of water that came out, which was ideal. I filled the tub to within an inch of the top after thoroughly moistening the mix, then squeezed it until it was tightly packed and flat on top.

After that, I buried my seeds. I tamped the soil with the palm of my hand after burying the seeds. I was not sure if I was supposed to bury the seeds or just leave them on the surface. Perita mentioned something about burying, so I went with it even though I was not so sure about it.

I enclosed my seeds with a layer of plastic wrap. Perita told me to just keep it in my room when I asked if it needed sunlight or complete darkness. She said my bedside table would be fine. Enough sunlight would fall on my bedside table, so this plant probably needed sunlight.

I was required to water them every day. Perita told me to care for them myself as it would make me feel better. It would not be a big deal. I was not so busy that I could not even take care of a plant.

I was just worried that Sapphire would destroy it. She hated plants, or perhaps she played with them in the form of destroying them.

It took me a while to finish planting the seeds. I had to read the instructions, again and again, to make sure I was not messing it up. I placed the tub on the bedside table carefully. Sapphire was in the room. She had the habit to throw things on the floor from the table. But the tub was too heavy for her to be able to push it with her tiny paw.

I took Sapphire with me to the bath. She did not hate water, nor did she like it. She just could not care less about it. I placed her on the stool by the bathtub and sat down in the bath after undressing. Late-night baths were always fun unless I caught a cold.

"I am so lonely now, Sapphire. Don't leave my side, okay? Mommy won't be like before and take you everywhere," I said, touching her fur. She was quite a moody cat. "Don't be mad at me anymore, okay?"

She meowed as if she understood me. Even she meowed with an attitude. "What the…?"

Sapphire understood me a lot even though she was just a cat. It was because we had a mental connection between us as I unconsciously transferred some black mana to her. After I suffered a miscarriage, Sapphire helped me a lot get better. That time, I felt like I was lost. There were times when I did not care even if I died.

Thinking about that time made me recall how much I had grown mentally and how things had changed.

I was still not a very strong person mentally. I broke down just because Dem had left. He would come back after two months, yet I felt very sad. But I had stopped trusting people easily like the way I trusted Dem even though I did not know him. Now that I thought about it, it was pretty stupid of me to do so.

Anything could have happened.

I was still forced to get married. It was not like I regretted my marriage with him. I was very happy, on the other hand. But I sometimes wished we met under different circumstances where everything would have happened because we wanted it, not because someone else planned everything for us.

Dem's obsession and my trauma- if they did not exist, would our lives have been different? There was no answer to a probable scenario. I was just being silly.

I was feeling quite restless for the last few days. Perhaps that was why I was thinking about these things.

Calix was right. I thought too much for no reason. I should relax and enjoy my everyday life than worry about everything.

'Geez, me and my overthinking habit… I hate it!'

Sapphire stayed there the whole time I was taking a bath. She was more curious about the soap bubbles than my blubbering. I did not mind it. Just having her around gave me a sense of calmness.

"Let's go to sleep now, okay, my Sapphire? I will allow you on the bed today."