The Unknown Feelings

College finally open. James still haven't heard anything from Russel since that day. Now James was sit next to Ade at class as they playing mobile games while waiting for class start at any minutes. On the other side, Russel who stand outside from class look bit restless. 

He keep look at James and Ade direction. Few moment later he just sigh and walk inside and take sit at back. Not long after that teacher come and everyone back to each seat. 

James get up but his track stop for second before he take his seat. Russel look up at James look like he want to say something but James have cold expression on him make Russel can't mutter a words. 30 minutes pass, awkward silent between them while James stay cold. With sigh, Russel push a note to James side.

'I want to talk. Let meet up during lunch.' What he wrote on note but James just glance and don't even take the note. Russel notice then he just take back the note and put it inside his own pocket. Time pass slowly when finally reach lunch break. Class after class. Ade approach James but he did glance at Russel who put his book to his bag.

"With me or....?" James look up. Ade notice that Russel stop moving and look like he wait for James answer.

"Go ahead, i will catch up with you later." Ade nod at James but then he did look back towards James and Russel who now left alone inside class. With sigh, Ade walk away.Know Ade already leaving, Russel turn to face James who still put his book away.

"J..Ja.." Not letting Russel call his name, James quick grab Russel by collar and shove Russel behind door then pin him on the wall. Russel eyes widen with the force he get. Table and chair fall over. Heavy breath, James close his eyes to control himself. Russel did gulping few times.

"J...james..?" Russel try to hold James hand on his collar but then suddenly James kiss him hard, forcing his tongue inside intertwine with Russel tongue only when soft moan from Russel make James stop but not forget to bite Russel lower lip before pull away.

"I claim this mine." James eyes darken while cares Russel lower lip. But then suddenly James eyes widen when he see Russel look uncomfortable against the wall.

"S..senior? Sorry. I-i didn't mean to.." James stutter but Russel look more confused.

"It okay. I'm fine. Erm, i have something to tell you." Russel avoid his James gaze.

"No, you don't have to tell me. We not even in relationship aren't we?" James back away giving Russel some space. Russel look bit taken back but then he just look down.

"Y..yeah. We not."

"So, i guess it was share with that person?" Once again Russel look surprise but then just nod avoid looking at James again.

"Hemm, so are you thinking about me when you two did it?" James smirk when he see Russel fidgeting then nod.

"I-i did and i feel sorry about the plan. I thought you must be waiting but i didn't come. So sor.. Ek! James?!" James suddenly bite Russel neck, leaving another mark on top a little visible mark that he been staring for while. When James pull away, Russel touch his neck.

"That better. Well if you did think about me i can say i feel glad? Or more like i have my hope? I also want to say sorry to be like this for now. I guess i can't control my jealousy." This time James lean again give a soft peck to his bitting mark on Russel lower lip.

"You free to do whatever you do. We not in relationship right? I'll be waiting. Like i said, I'll be waiting no matter how long it take. But i stop when you said it by yourself that you choose other person." Russel look at James tenderly. His heart feel bit heavy when heard James say he stop if Russel himself choose someone else. Push aside uneasy feeling, Russel wrap his arm around James neck then push himself to give James kiss slowly but he keep push his body to James.

'I don't even know about my own feeling. Once i sort it out i make sure to let you the first one to know. Am i greed? I don't know but i did keep thinking about you when that person having sex with me and i did.....cry for thinking i must have hurt you.' Is what on Russel mind right now, the more he think the more he push his body towards James and didn't want to pull away from the kiss.