The Abyss Between Us: A Tale Of Cursed Love

In the morning , the windows of Kim Eun Joeng's bedroom were still closed , the time was somewhere between the 10 - 10:30 a.m but he still has not woken up , he was under the blanket on his bed , mumbling something to himself like a madman.

ahhh  , Eun Joeng stop thinking about this.

why the hell did I kiss him, how would I face him now, he might think I am perverted monster, who preys on handsome men, aarggghh, he might also think I just want to get into his bed.

into his bed..... That's not a bad idea though,i want to touch him, his chest is so firm and muscley, i want to squeeze it and his arms are so strong and those hands are so big and rough,it must feel good if he rubs me.

Noooooo, what am I thinking I am a state official,a noble man,i don't want to sleep with him.. this is not me..i must be possessed by some perverted ghost that's why I want to kiss him again and do things... yes it's the ghost who wants to kiss him,not me, i am an innocent man.

Eun joeng was still in the reverie of his thoughts when suddenly there was a knock on his door ...

W..ho... Is ..it .. Eun Joeng asked a little startled..

It's me, master ... The butler answered from the other side of the door..

Oh ..come inside Kim Eun Joeng said in a bit relaxed voice.

Master, i wanted to ask if you want to take your breakfast, the butler inquired.

No ,i don't want to eat ,i am not hungry, Kim Eun Joeng said as he got up from his bed and asked.

Where is the man who came here..

He is in the guest room master..

Okay , i will get ready for work now , you go and serve him the breakfast in his room..

Okay master , as you say, the butler said this and left the room .

Yes, this Is right ,i will go to work now and come back in the late evening , maybe I would sort out my thoughts by then and talk to him or maybe he will run away from here until then...

Running away, no, no ,no he will not..he said he walked here from imperial City only to see me, he would not run away.

But i will for now,  Eun Joeng thought as he got ready and ran from the manor as fast as he could to avoid even looking at Gamja's shadow..

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The butler took the tray of food and walke to Gamja's room and knocked on it gently..

Come in.. Gamja replied and sat up straight on the bed..

Here is your breakfast sire , please eat it ... The butler said bowing a bit..

No, no ,i don't want to eat , thank you for your kindness.. Gamja said as he bowed to the man..

Master ordered me to give you breakfast and lunch and to told you to rest..the butler answered..

What does this mean ...

No way , No way, does this mean that he wants me to recover fast and get out of his sight,no that can't happen,i know I did a grave sin but I would not leave from here ,i will die but never walk away from here, never. 

i will not eat anything and become more sick and stay here with him,Gamja thought as he stared at the tray of food infront of him.

No i don't want to eat... Gamja said looking at the tray of food fearfully .

But master said you have to eat your meals.

No, i am not really hungry, i feel like throwing up .

As you wish.. the butler said and took the food back .

i will not get out of here, no matter what he does I will stay here with him , i will not go back at any cost . Gamja thought as he curled himself into a ball .

In the evening , Eun Joeng came back to the manor , the butler was standing on the door to greet him.

Welcome back master, the butler said and bowed down ..

Eun Joeng stood there for a moment and then proceeded to walk to his room...

Where is that man .. Kim Eun Joeng asked as he turned around to look at the butler..

He is in his room master , he was in there for the whole day ,I took his meals to him personally but he said he didn't feel well and didn't want to eat anything ,he has been hungry for the whole day. The butler reported.

Is he sick ,Eun Joeng asked as he changed the direction of his footsteps and went to Gamja's room , he reached there and softly knocked on the door..

I don't want to eat anything ,i am fine , i am not hungry , Gamja said as he thought the butler was again here with food..

Go and get some food for him , Eun Joeng ordered the butler and entered in Gamja's room.

As the door opened Gamja turned around to look at who was entering the room without permission but when he saw Eun Joeng at the door , his eyes widened with shock , he quickly got off from the bed and got on his knees on the floor..

I am sorry my lord, i know I did a grave sin but please don't chase me away, i will do anything you say , accept any punishment but please don't tell me to stay away from you please , i will not leave from here.

Eun Joeng looked at him for a moment and then walked to him without saying anything and sat in front of Gamja

I also don't want you to leave me , Eun Joeng said in a low voice almost inaudible as he looked at Gamja with a helpless expression on his face..

Gamja's eyes widened again as he heard the innocent words of this heaven's angel , he was about to say something to the angel when suddenly the butler knocked on the door..

Come in , Eun Joeng said still sitting in front of Gamj , the butler as ordered came in and placed the table of food in between Gamja and Eun Joeng and took his leave..

Let's eat dinner , i heard you didn't eat anything the whole day.. Kim Eun Joeng said.

Does that mean you will not chase me away, my lord , Gamja asked with a lost puppy expression on his face..

Yes , if you come forward now and eat dinner with me , i will not chase you away , Eun Joeng reassured Gamja.

Gamja quickly sat up straight and went forward in front of him and sat there smiling widely at Eun Joeng.

Eat .. Eun Joeng said and took a bite of his food and then suddenly spoke up again..

Oh shit ..i have never asked you your name, what is your name by the way, Eun Joeng finished his sentence and took another bite..

Gamja , Gamja said innocently without thinking much..

As soon as Eun Joeng heard his name ,the food in his mouth fell down and he started laughing loudly.

What do you mean , are you trying to joke with me , there is no one whose name would be Gamja in this world . Eun Joeng said as he continued laughing loudly..

Gamja looked at him with a smile on his face and thought..

I am so proud of myself today that i can die, I made him smile, I made the god's favourite and most appreciated creation laugh, his laugh is so beautiful,it feels like a beautiful red rose grows in the cast desert everytime his laugh jingles in the air, his face seems more delicate, everytime his eyes squint to the point of closing,he just looks so much ethereal everytime he smiles.

who gave you the world's most beautiful name, huh, this name should be given by someone who really loves you, right, Eun Joeng asked.

Gamja looked at Eun Joeng and smiled before saying

Yes ,this name was given to me by my little won..

When Eun Joeng heard Gamja's words the chopsticks in his hand fell down and he yelled..

Who is little won and why did he give you this name..

The sudden change in his mood made Gamja shocked ,it was so sudden he could not think why Eun Joeng got mad in milliseconds.

I asked who is it.. Eun Joeng yelled again..

He is my little brother.. Gamja answered..

Do you think I am dumb or something ,why would a younger brother name his older brother.. Eun Joeng asked again .. 

Who is he ..is he your wife .. 

What no .. he is a little kid, 

Oh ,so you call him kid ,a nickname,he really is your wife huh..

No , he is a literal kid ,he is barely 15..

What, you actually married a little kid , you are grooming a child ,who let you marry him..

Nooo , it's not that ..

What is it then..

I don't have a wife , you are the only one who i hold in my heart ..

No , I don't believe you .. Kim Eun Joeng said in a low sad voice..

I swear it's the truth , my lord , Gamja said and kissed Eun Joeng's hand.