chapter 90
90 – Adulter (2)
Shunika and Ruen left their seats.
They must have a lot of questions, but they didn’t seem to want to interrupt the teacher and student’s time together after 10 years.
On the rooftop where the wind blows wildly.
An old master in a brown coat was looking at me.
Even though summer has passed, Courtani in this hot weather…
He was truly a master who never changed.
“Aren’t you hot?”
“I’m so used to living like this.”
“How long are you going to stand at the door like that?”
“Ter, I was waiting for you to call me.”
“Don’t call me that anymore. Even Master knows. Everything from my name to my environment has changed.”
“Are you still calling me Master?”
“That… ”
Are you talking about it now?
It is true that Lafury Meline is a mentor who inspired me greatly at the academy, but there was only one teacher who taught me alchemy in my life, Cloudy.
Even if a lot of time has passed.
Even if the relationship has changed a lot.
My mistakes in the past… Even if not washed.
He was still my mentor.
My mentor was Claudy Lajour.
I took out a cigarette to clear my stuffy mind.
“Master, are you still smoking?”
“Ter, I don’t remember you smoking.”
“You were too young then. And don’t call me Terra.”
He put the tobacco in his mouth and headed back.
Then, he leaned his arms on the rooftop obstacle.
Cloudy was following me all the way to the side.
I handed Cloudy a cigarette and lit him first.
Tak Tak-
Fire-
The pleasant sound of burning tobacco.
When I was little, the sound of this cigarette that Cloudy smoked made me feel good.
The smell was terrible, but the sound and atmosphere at that time.
Even when I was young, it remained as a fond memory in my heart.
to forget the trauma.
The first time I touched a cigarette was…
Perhaps it was for that reason.
“How are you?”
“… Thanks to Master. I have lived an undeserved life in an undeserved family.”
When he was 10 years old, he was adopted by the Philip family and 10 years later.
I have lived a satisfactory life as a decent nobleman and a capable warrior.
Sometimes I feel that the way my father Colchester looks at me is like a tool, but my older sister Karin did her best to engrave the word family on me… I could always fill a vacant seat.
And the teacher who was a friend of Colchester Phillip at the beginning.
It was possible because Cloudy sent me to the Philip family.
“These days, I enjoy spending time at the academy and alchemy. Master will probably be surprised to see how good I am.”
“okay. The news was constantly heard. Your name appeared often in the newspapers.”
“You saw it.”
Since the last incident, my name was often published in various continental newspapers, so I thought that Master would have read a lot of my articles as well.
But hearing it in person feels different.
My article, often called the genius of alchemy, comes out in front of me.
I was embarrassed to think that Master had read such an embarrassing article.
And I remembered a headline I read recently.
– Sacher Philip is the second coming of Cloudy Lazur!
My face is hot.
please.
I hope you didn’t read that article… .
“The magic tool called Anti-Venom surprised me too. Venom Arcus is a demon that we couldn’t conquer even in our time, but he really did a great job.”
“ah. I received a lot of help from an academy professor named Meline. The core performance of magic tools was also devised by Professor Meline.”
“I know that the goal was made by you. It’s been a while since I saw you, so you look at my eyes so easily.”
“… sorry.”
I forgot for a moment.
Alchemy was Cloudy, and Cloudy was Alchemy.
father of alchemy.
That great title never comes easily.
When he makes any comment about alchemy, whether it’s my compliment or not, he’s absolutely right.
If he denied it, he would surely be beaten up by the academic alchemists who worshiped him.
I apologize for being a bit presumptuous.
Cloudy passed it over without hesitation.
It looked like he really didn’t care.
Master was someone who had no interest in the various titles and honors that had been given to him before.
He never tried to lightly use the heavy power that had been placed on him, and he felt repulsive at the fact that such power was being held involuntarily.
A person like that would not have accepted me as a disciple in the first place.
As I immersed myself in those old thoughts, there was a moment of silence.
I also want to break the quiet atmosphere.
When I met Master, I brought out the things I wanted to ask.
As much as Cloudy came to the academy out of curiosity about me, I also wanted to visit him and ask him many things.
“Master… How have you been lately. I heard that you have been in Mount Armaine all along. that… To the slash-and-burn village.”
But when I asked this question.
Although I spoke out.
In an instant, my voice trembled.
Armenian acid.
slash-and-burn village.
Master.
and… me.
Sacher Philip.
No, Adulter.
Forgotten names and place names came up and down Master’s lips.
The nightmares I hoped would disappear began to invade the realm inside me again.
I felt uncontrollable anxiety and trembling.
And I was frustrated inside.
If I ever see Master again.
I thought I could face myself and the past straight up.
I thought I could cover up the dull things with the gap of change.
It was still difficult for me to even bring up a related story.
Chick-chick-
He took out a new cigarette and lit it.
But maybe it’s because I’m nervous.
It did not catch fire easily.
“Now I understand why you suddenly started smoking.”
Cloudy, who was watching me quietly, said.
Then he took the igniter from me and himself lit the cigarette in my mouth.
profit-
Fire-
The fire he kindled burned too easily.
Like the embers of a nightmare I wanted to erase from my memory.
“Remove your strength.”
Suddenly, I felt Cloudy’s hand on my hair.
Cloudy, who is the top class in mana control.
He was in the process of checking my physical condition, attempting to directly influence my magical power.
“… Ter. No, Sacher.”
My body shrinks for some reason at the sound of Cloudy’s voice calling me.
A figure I have never revealed to anyone.
All the pain inside of me that I’ve been dealing with alone.
It was as if all of them had been caught by Cloudy.
“you… You are taking sleeping pills. Even with an overdose.”
“… … .”
It was as Professor Meline had predicted earlier.
I am taking sleeping pills.
To be precise, a powerful magic tool that definitively sentences you to sleep.
I am taking [Paranormal Stilnox].
period is innumerable years.
After the day I experienced living hell 10 years ago.
I used to take sleeping pills every single day.
“Your body is very damaged. No, is your mind broken? All of the magic circuits that I can feel are normal, but there are too many circuits that are not working.”
Except for Alchemy, a multi-talented warrior.
Why don’t you put a lot of effort into other talents.
No matter how much effort you put in, the results aren’t great.
My body, clogged with hallucinations, intentionally blocked the transmission of magical power to the circuits leading to other talents, except for alchemy and swordsmanship, which I had cultivated for a long time.
alchemy, and swordsmanship.
Only two talents that I have trained for a long time since I was young were able to open circuits and grow within my multi-talents.
Cloudy’s expression turned strange.
“Look at me, Sacher.”
“Yes, Master.”
“Do you see hallucinations?”
“I can’t see you now.”
“now?”
“You can’t see it when you smoke. I can’t even see it when I’m sleeping. So I relied more on sleeping pills. During lectures where I can’t smoke, I can see terrible hallucinations.”
An undergraduate student who only sleeps in class.
Talented, but lazy genius.
before becoming famous.
Adjectives that stuck with me.
It’s actually a prejudice against what it looks like on the outside.
I was neither sleepy nor lazy.
A terrible hallucination that just haunts me.
I just wanted to get away from them.
“Are there any other cases? When hallucinations are not visible.”
“… … .”
“I see there.”
“… when meeting important people. invisible. I only recently found out.”
When hallucinations are not seen, there are a total of three cases.
when sleeping.
when smoking.
and… .
I feel special.
When you meet people who are precious enough to care for you.
I don’t see hallucinations then.
Luendo and Schnikado.
Delia and Karin too.
No matter which of the four lovers you meet.
I could not hallucinate.
And that’s the real reason I thought I’d changed lately.
Because of them, it feels like I pulled out a sword that was deeply embedded in me.
The people who breathed life into the name ‘Sacher’.
Through them, I felt like I was stripped of the worst trauma I had ever had.
“You have suffered a lot.”
“No… is.”
But the person who was at the end of that hell.
The person who watched me silently in constant guilt.
Inside the terrible trauma that killed me…
who stood still.
He was my teacher and another father.
Cloudy Lazur.
Even when he first saw the sight.
Even when I was working alone and sending myself to the Philip family.
10 years passed.
Even when we meet again like this.
His face was the same.
There was no hatred, regret, or regret towards me in it.
He always had the same face.
widely-
There was a harsh sound of the body hitting the ground.
It was the sound of my knees sinking to the roof floor.
I fell to my knees and hit my head on the floor.
Forgiveness.
I don’t know if I can put those two words into my mouth, but at least I wanted to get them from Cloudy.
Even if it is not forgiven, I wanted to show him the attitude of asking for forgiveness.
“sorry… sorry. I am so sorry.”
“… Nothing has changed from 10 years ago. As I said then, it’s not your fault.”
“no! If I hadn’t said that I would study the heart of a demon out of excitement alone… !!”
“Then it must be my fault for allowing it. To be precise, the party of warriors who committed the murder must have the most fundamental fault. It was a kind of disaster.”
Water droplets flowed from his eyes and fell to the floor.
I was crying.
10 years ago, if only it was rather painful and painful.
Tears now flowed over that sad past.
Precious people who cherish and like more than anyone else.
When they shined within me, I was able to realize.
How harsh I was to Cloudy.
How many precious people have you lost?
Unable to pack by mistake.
Have you made a serious mistake?
“sorry… little father.”
Cloudy Lazur.
He is the only teacher who taught me alchemy.
My parents who brutally lost their lives in a moment’s mistake.
Among them, the father’s brother.
He was the person who became my uncle.