Chapter 34 - r18
Chapter 34
—–CROW—–
Though the intended goal had been achieved, we siblings remained on the bed for a while.
I was dazed, lost in post-orgasmic bliss.
Geum-bi noona, seemingly frozen, was processing the unfamiliar feeling of semen and the sensation of a penis in her hand for the first time.
‘…What do I do now?’
As my ragged breathing calmed and my pounding heart returned to its normal rhythm, my melted brain also regained its function.
I naturally lowered the hand that had been stroking Geum-bi noona’s hair to her back and, half-hugging her, glanced at her.
“Huu…!”
Geum-bi noona, meeting my eyes, quickly looked away.
However, her body remained pressed against mine, and she seemed too embarrassed to move.
Her reaction was so cute that I almost started stroking her hair again.
But I barely managed to hold onto my sanity and, belatedly, confessed to Geum-bi noona.
“Actually… I masturbated in front of Su-jeong noona yesterday.”
“Huh? W-what?”
“You were curious, weren’t you? About what happened between us last night.”
Geum-bi noona’s eyes widened at the sudden confession, but her expression quickly changed to a sharp glare as she remembered her interrogation.
“So, you’re saying you really became… *that* kind of relationship with unnie?”
“What kind of relationship is *that*?”
“You know… like, d-dating, or even if not, something similar….”
“Noona, we’re siblings. How can family date or have a relationship?”
“Ugh?! W-well, they could! You and Su-jeong unnie… one of you might be adopted.”
Geum-bi noona’s guess wasn’t entirely unreasonable.
Even I had the delusion ‘Does she want to marry me?’ after Su-jeong noona’s actions last night.
‘But, that can’t be it, right? How old are we? If she was seriously going to confess, she would have chosen a better way.’
She wasn’t a high school boy going through puberty, so there’s no way she thought I’d fall for seduction.
More importantly, it hadn’t been confirmed yet that we weren’t biological siblings. Even if we weren’t, there was no reason for me to date my noonas.
“I think Su-jeong noona doesn’t want to break the family framework.”
“…What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
“We accidentally become suspicious of each other, and even though we rely on each other, these kinds of incidents keep happening, right? With Su-jeong noona and Geum-bi noona.”
“…That’s true.”
“So I think she’s worried. If I keep doing this, we might actually cross the line someday… so she’s trying to control it herself?”
“And that method is watching you masturbate?”
“…She didn’t just watch, ouch?!”
In the midst of my belated confession, I added another, even more belated confession.
Geum-bi noona pinched my chest with her free hand and glared at me.
“As I thought, you did something to unnie, didn’t you? Or did something happen to you?”
“N, no… I really didn’t touch her. Really.”
“Then?”
“…Su-jeong noona just took off her top and hugged me… ugh.”
“Took off her clothes? You mean she showed you her bare skin?”
“I didn’t see it properly. I turned around when she took her clothes off, and then I hugged her right away.”
That was true.
Of course, I did sneak a peek at the side of her breast reflected in the mirror, but that was it. That’s barely okay, right?
Well, apparently not.
My noona’s glare from below is scary too.
“Anyway, so you ejaculated on unnie’s pants? Leaving that smell all over?”
“…Yeah.”
“Ha, now it’s clear. Yes, that was the exact smell. The scent of night-blooming jasmine spreading from under you right now.”
When Geum-bi noona pulled her hand out of my pants, the undeniable scent of evidence spread across the bed.
She sniffed and then, wrinkling her nose, gritted her teeth.
“You two really… You’re both completely crazy. You and unnie.”
“…Sorry, noona.”
“Don’t apologize. That makes it seem like even more of a strange relationship.”
I couldn’t deny it.
A noona who becomes masturbation material for her younger brother who’s masturbating in the middle of the night—that couldn’t be called normal, not even as a joke.
‘Well, a noona who gives her younger brother a handjob while interrogating him is about the same….’
I kept my mouth shut and swallowed my words.
I had no intention of comparing the two noonas, and if I said anything, my crotch might become a hostage again in Geum-bi noona’s hand.
As we both fell silent, the bed became quiet again.
But this time, we weren’t just spacing out; we were both deep in thought.
“Noona.”
“Ji-gu-ya.”
“Ah, yeah. You go first, noona.”
“No… it’s okay. You go first, Ji-gu, what is it?”
We had spoken at the same time, and after hesitating, I declared to Geum-bi noona,
“I, I’m telling you, I have absolutely no intention of crossing the line with you or any of my noonas.”
“Hmm?”
“Things happened that led to misunderstandings, but if I had those intentions, wouldn’t something have happened already?”
“…That’s true. Just look at Su-jeong unnie, if you had any bad intentions, things would have been very dangerous.”
“Exactly. Conversely, the fact that nothing happened proves that I don’t have those thoughts.”
“So? What are you trying to say?”
“I’m saying I’ll be more careful so that this doesn’t happen again… That’s all.”
I couldn’t find anything else to add.
This wasn’t something I could prove or write down in a contract.
But perhaps my past actions were holding me back.
Geum-bi noona nodded, but her words implied she didn’t fully trust me.
“I’ve lived with you as family my whole life, and even if it turns out we’re not blood-related, I don’t think our relationship will change.”
“Yeah.”
“But that’s a separate issue from trusting you right now.”
“Mm-hmm….”
“After all, these things have happened, and similar incidents could happen again in the future.”
“…Wouldn’t being as careful as possible be enough?”
“I think words aren’t enough at this point.”
She had a point.
Honestly, even I found it ridiculous that I was saying this after just ejaculating in Geum-bi noona’s hand.
“Or… how about we go back to sleeping like we used to?”
“In separate rooms? Do you think Su-jeong unnie would agree to that?”
“…I don’t know. Considering what happened last night, it seems like she still wants to sleep together.”
“Right. If sleeping separately would solve the problem, she wouldn’t have done that. …Same goes for me.”
“Huh?”
“I mean, it was fine when I didn’t know… but after actually sleeping together, it’s comfortable and nice. For the time being… I want to keep it this way.”
Since both noonas felt that way, it seemed like physical separation wasn’t an option.
I couldn’t think of any other ideas, so I scratched my head and asked Geum-bi noona what she was thinking.
“What were you going to say earlier? The thing you postponed because we spoke at the same time.”
“Regarding this issue… everything’s fine, but there’s one thing I can’t compromise on.”
“What is it?”
“Don’t touch unnie. I’ll never forgive you for that, not even in death.”
Geum-bi noona looked up at me with eyes filled not with anger, confusion, accusation, or surprise, but with pure determination.
Her eyes, her voice, and her words all conveyed how serious she was.
“I don’t know what kind of ‘line’ you were talking about, Ji-gu… but from my perspective, I’d prefer if nothing like last night ever happened between you and unnie again.”
“Yeah… I understand.”
“Of course, I understand unnie’s feelings too. But… it’s impossible. No matter how I think about it, I can’t stand the thought of you and unnie being involved in that way.”
“Yeah, I understand everything, noona.”
Geum-bi noona had always cherished Su-jeong noona.
Even when they fought occasionally, it was always out of concern for Su-jeong noona. Her feelings were always consistent.
‘It’s not about who’s blood-related or not, right? Even I wouldn’t feel good if I thought Su-jeong noona was involved with a complete stranger….’
Honestly, it would be disgusting.
It would be selfish of me to say this, but I’d prefer if Su-jeong noona never knew a man in her life.
‘Haa, I’m still a child in many ways. I need to graduate from my oldest noona soon….’
I felt pathetic for understanding Geum-bi noona on such a strange point, and as if she understood my reaction, she blushed.
“Okay. So I just need to be extra careful in front of Su-jeong noona, right?”
“…I told you. Words alone aren’t reassuring enough.”
“Right, you did. Then what should I do…… Ugh?”
We had reached a certain understanding and empathy.
We had walked the same path up to the point of understanding the situation and analyzing the problem—.
But at the final conclusion, Geum-bi noona took a step ahead.
“N, noona? Your hand is….”
“So, if you’re okay with it, Ji-gu… I’ll take care of it from now on.”
“Huh?”
“Whenever you’re struggling, whenever you have an erection, I’ll take care of it for you. …Is that not enough?”
A surprising suggestion.
No, a terrifying and shocking suggestion.
‘After hearing everything about Su-jeong noona, that’s your conclusion? Really?’
How was this any different from Su-jeong noona?
I was dumbfounded, but I couldn’t easily speak, seeing Geum-bi noona’s earnest expression.
“…So, you’re the one taking the initiative, right?”
“Mm-hmm. I’m the one, I’m the one moving my hand… so there’s no problem.”
Unconsciously, I asked a question that sounded like agreement.
I tried not to compare, but the strikingly similar situation forced me to weigh the two noonas.
‘Not in terms of who is more attractive, but objectively, whose offer is better in this situation.’
In Su-jeong noona’s case, she offered her own body.
It seemed safe because there wouldn’t be any physical contact, but as last night showed, I ended up hugging her anyway.
‘So it all depends on my self-control whether or not I cross the line.’
On the other hand, Geum-bi noona offered to directly help me with masturbation.
The physical contact was more intense than with Su-jeong noona, but Geum-bi noona wouldn’t take off her clothes, and she would be in control.
‘Even if I lose my mind and try to touch her… Geum-bi noona would definitely stop me.’
The scales slowly tipped to one side.
Comparing my noonas’ attractiveness was absurd, so I chose the option that seemed safer based on the circumstances.
“Then… can I ask you for that from now on, noona?”
“Mm-hmm. And please tell me anytime you’re aroused, Ji-gu-ya.”
Only after exchanging these words did we realize what kind of agreement we had made.
As if on cue, our faces flushed at the same time, and we stammered out excuses.
“Ah, um, of course, not every time! If it doesn’t happen, I obviously won’t ask.”
“Yeah, of course. It’s not like I’m saying I’ll do it anytime, haha…!”
Looking back, shouldn’t I have more strongly asserted that such a thing wouldn’t happen again?
Regret always comes after the fact, and the past can never be changed.
Just like the sky, which had been dyed red like our flushed cheeks, eventually turned completely dark.
Once something starts to change, it only moves forward, unless it’s stopped.
* * *
A few days later, Geum-bi noona, who had just returned from work, quietly called me to her room.
While we were chatting as usual, my lower half unexpectedly became erect.
I had been doing well, abstaining for about three days.
But with the accidental brush of Geum-bi noona’s hand, my body reacted reflexively.
“Noona, this is….”
“…Shall I help you, Ji-gu-ya?”
It was barely an erection, just a slight twitch and hardening.
But Geum-bi noona didn’t miss the small reaction and asked me.
I definitely had something to say in that moment.
But my trembling lips… didn’t make a single sound until Geum-bi noona’s hand slipped inside my pants.
—–CROW—–