I Became the Childhood Friend Who Commits Suicide

Chapter 15

I couldn’t even bring myself to get up, feeling completely dazed.

Calm down.

What would change if Han Si-hyun were transferred to Class B?

Everything.

There are countless events we share as classmates. If Han Si-hyun is suddenly removed from the center of all those incidents? The original story would go off course entirely.

It’s impossible to stay calm.

I was so mentally drained that I could barely react.

Would anyone really understand how I feel right now?

“Sweetie!”

Whoever it was, they sure were cheerful in this situation. I wonder who they mean by “sweetie”… Oh, crap.

My vision went dark. Not because of some seizure, but because someone suddenly wrapped me in a hug—a warm and soft embrace.

“Thank you! It’s all thanks to you!”

“Um… Excuse me…”

The person holding me was none other than the student council president. As if hugging me wasn’t enough, she ruffled my hair like I was some golden retriever.

“How could you be so kind and forgiving? Not only did you forgive my little sister, but you even went out of your way to help her. Truly, I’m touched.”

By this point, my face was so buried in her embrace that I couldn’t even speak.

I can’t breathe!

I realized for the first time that even kindness can be suffocating.

The other jurors gathered around, looking at me warmly. But honestly, I felt the complete opposite of what they did.

If they wanted to act so compassionate, they could’ve just given her demerits and left it at that—or even 100 hours of service would’ve been better than transferring her class.

The person in question, Han Si-hyun, approached me as well.

She looked at me with a strange expression before speaking.

“Thank you.”

Her words didn’t carry much emotion, but it felt different from her usual tone. My passionate defense must have affected her somehow. Not that it mattered to me at this point.

“And I’m sorry. Si woo told me everything about your current situation.”

Why did he have to tell her that?

I couldn’t understand it at all.

Normally, I would’ve brushed it off, but everything felt so unfair that I was interpreting everything negatively.

I was frustrated with Kim Si woo, frustrated with Han Si-hyun, and I was fed up with the student council president and the disciplinary committee. I hated all of it!

Why is nothing going my way?

For the first time since I came here, I felt like I was truly breaking down, tears welling up uncontrollably.

I tried to play it cool.

“…Just go… please, just go…” But I couldn’t hold back any longer and started to cry.

Why does it feel so unjust?

It’s like the whole world is against me.

Everyone froze at my sudden outburst of tears.

That’s right. I’m a crazy mess right now, so just leave me alone.

Please, I’m begging you…

Then, a kind-looking old man spoke up.

“It seems she’s feeling very unsettled. Coincidentally, I was planning to counsel this young lady.”

…Counseling?

Oh, right.

It’s Wednesday, isn’t it?

The school nurse had scheduled a counseling session for me.

Even that felt unjust right now. I didn’t ask for counseling; why did they have to schedule it for me?

“I’ll take Yoo Hana with me and have a talk.”

“Yes, please. Thank you.”

With sympathetic looks from everyone, I left the disciplinary room and followed the counselor to his office.

As we exited, Han Si-hyun continued to stare at me intently.

—

“Have you calmed down a bit?”

“Yes…”

“Would you like a cup of tea?”

Sniffling, I answered immediately.

“Do you… have milk?”

“Of course. I even have warm milk.”

Yes. This person understands. Milk is the best. Nothing comforts sorrow like milk.

Sip

“Phew…”

Just one sip, and I already felt better. Milk truly is a gift from heaven. I’ll have to start thanking the cows every morning.

“Do you think the punishment your friend received was too harsh?”

“Yes! Definitely! Just demerits would’ve been enough…”

Honestly?

Kids grow up by bickering sometimes. Arguments are just part of getting along.

And I said I was fine with it.

“There’s actually another reason behind the punishment.”

“…Another reason?”

What? Is there some hidden scheme?

Does this mean the whole thing was premeditated?

Could it be the demon forces deliberately trying to separate Han Si-hyun from Kim Si woo…?

But that wasn’t in the original plot.

“It’s because of you.”

“…Me?”

“May I see the wounds under that bandage?”

“Oh, these are, um, just…”

“They’re self-inflicted, aren’t they?”

The school nurse must have told him. Why ask if he already knew? Is he just trying to mess with me?

“It’s alright. Everyone on the disciplinary committee was already aware.”

“So… everyone knows I self-harmed? But why?”

“Because it means your state of mind has been fragile.”

Wait a minute.

This conversation is taking a strange turn.

I waved my hands, trying to clarify.

“This has nothing to do with it! I did this on my own, way before I even argued with Si-hyun!”

“That’s not the point. The issue is that she used her ability to threaten someone who was already in a fragile state. That’s why they had to make a strict ruling.”

…This can’t be.

So, basically, the whole mess is my fault? If I hadn’t self-harmed, this conflict with Si-hyun would have just been a minor scuffle.

It’s all because of me.

“Haha…”

“Don’t be so disheartened. Your testimony helped achieve a much better outcome. Without your defense, your friend might have been expelled.”

Is he seriously calling that consolation? If I hadn’t taunted Han Si-hyun about her dead brother, or even if I hadn’t self-harmed…

Does this old man even understand the weight of what he’s saying? He has no idea how I feel.

I just want to disappear.

“Please answer honestly. Is there a reason you self-harmed? Were you being bullied…?”

“A reason? It’s simple.”

I let out a bitter laugh and answered politely.

“Because I wanted to die.”

“…”

“You know, the first time I cut my wrist, it was so thrilling, I almost wet myself. But later…”

“Enough.”

The old man’s expression hardened.

What’s with that look? I’m explaining exactly what he asked.

“Hmm… it seems it’s more serious than I thought. It may be fortunate in a way.”

“Fortunate? Sure, if I died, that would’ve been even more fortunate…”

“The student being transferred to your class might be able to help with your mental health.”

Someone transferring into my class? The person swapping with Han Si-hyun in Class B?

Was there anyone noteworthy in Class B?

I couldn’t recall anyone significant.

Obviously, most of the important side characters would be in Class A, along with the protagonist, Kim Si woo. The only one I remember is that guy who’s pretty good at fighting.

“Is it a boy?”

“No. It’s a girl.”

In that case, I have no idea who it could be.

“And I think we should hold regular counseling sessions.”

Hilarious. Like I’d willingly come back for this useless counseling.

“Please come again next Wednesday. Alright?”

“Sure.”

But, no way. I’ll skip every single session after today.

“Oh, that’s right. Next Wednesday is your field training day for second years. In that case, come on Thursday instead.”

Thursday is fine, too.

Because on Wednesday, I’ll be dead. Just one week from now. Wednesday is D-Day.

I give up on preserving the story. With Han Si-hyun being transferred, it’s already ruined.

I just need to last for one more week. Then I’ll leave the academy and end it.

That’s all. Just one more week.

Please.

Let things go smoothly.

Amen.

—

After everyone had left the disciplinary committee room, only two sisters remained.

“So, it’s true, huh?”

“What is?”

Her younger sister’s blunt response didn’t faze Se-hee, who continued casually.

“Did that sweet little thing really bring up Sihoon?”

…

Han Sihoon.

Their younger brother who was no longer with them, the painful wound for both sisters.

“Yes. But I was the one who was at fault.”

Si-hyun nodded with certainty, remembering the brief phone call with Kim Si woo after everything had happened yesterday.

When he’d asked what led to it all, she had told him.

It was all Yoo Hana’s fault, then explained what had happened.

But after hearing from Si woo about Yoo Hana’s current situation, she realized she was wrong.

However, the incident had already occurred, and it was too late to undo it. She calmly accepted her mistake and intended to face the consequences.

If Yoo Hana hadn’t defended her so passionately, she would have followed through with it.

Honestly, she was surprised.

She hadn’t expected Hana to stand up for her, especially when it would’ve been natural for her to harbor resentment.

“So, do you still think the same way?”

“About what?”

“That sweetie has awakened?”

The whole incident had started because of Si-hyun’s hasty judgment. If she hadn’t pushed so hard and had only gently suggested it, things would have turned out much better.

But Si-hyun’s conviction remained firm.

“Yes.”

“You’re as stubborn as ever.”

“But I’m sure Hana is a passive ability user. Nothing else makes sense.”

“Well, if there’s one thing I’ve learned as student council president, it’s that there’s no such thing as a perfectly managed situation. Mistakes are bound to happen.”

In other words, unlike her sister, Se-hee believed that Hana was, in fact, powerless.

Who was right between the two?

Confirming it would be simple, really.

“Then, should we ask?”

“Ask who?”

“Who else?”

Se-hee smiled knowingly.

“The person who oversees admissions.”

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