●Cricket Oneshots● [Love & Romance] Multi Couples

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Wiped his eyes cause no one is gonna do it for him.

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Months down...

Seems like still hunting in your way, like before when I've been called an insane to not prefer my marriage life beside having you between hands and drowning down how I used to when you look in my eyes.

The sorrow is still having me towards rationalised feelings what was supposed to show my all emotions off what obviously was the only choice out of my brain, the heartbeat was at once stopped when my mind included you're not coming back.

I said It's okay if you choosed to be happy isn't called a fault or guilty. I didn't make it for you as the way it needs to be. My mind didn't want it back what I loved the most at once. I called it past still haunting its way back.

"So you want to go down," Christian says to Mozzie, who's snaping their picture. They didn't find a better place to sit or to click any phoho. They've come to Bondi beach for spending their one month relationship anniversary. They come infront one beautiful sunset. He set the camera with timer- 2 minutes. Maybe they'd find a better pose. Christian moves and keeps his hand on Mozzie's shoulder, crossed it behind his neck. Mozzie holds his waist and moves him closer. Christian laughs a bit as his cheeks goes reddish too. "Look at me," Mozzie says as Christian slowly looked at his eyes. Mozzie stares at his eyes for one minute as he can see the waves on his eyes, maybe it will float him away with its enchantment. He closed his eyes and kissed his forhead when the photo clicked. Christian hugs him tightly as Mozzie even forgets he has something in head, something that is cursing them, something still hunting. But he holds him tightly, at the time a huge wage comes and thrusts with their legs.

Mozzie kept thinking while he went to a relationship with Christian few days ago that how things are running around him. He has a wife and a son too. Maybe he is ending up it with a private affair which is simple but his wife isn't gonna make it as easier as Mozzie is taking. He can't speak out of his mouth, only what he can do is standing up before kitchen and drink all the lines from his wife. She already knew about his affair but didn't say any words except looks. He is trying heart and soul to get rid off that and maybe months later his wife is throwing a divorce paper on his face, which is the only desire left with Mozzie. But she isn't busting her ass. Maybe it can even happen he couldn't divorce his wife cause it wasn't an arrange marriage either. Maybe he can learn from his mistakes. The mistake he made with Christian- no he hasn't even kissed him! Only did a relationship, still searching his own way on Christian's demand. Mozzie knows, if he can't find a way to kick his wife out or a divorce, he is never gonna find Christian. Damn! He waited for months! Mozzie knows. He has the weight in his heart more than a sea can contain water in it. He felt each waves too. Felt, he's holding Christian between his arm- which is enought to go against world. Sometimes he took it as joke that he wants that guy more than his wife, who he loved once and his own son, the guy yet he hasn't kissed! Ridiculous!

"Are you coming or not?" Christian sent a message to Mozzie when it's been three hours he is waiting for him with a bare chair infront. He is looking other couple and always made a comparison mind- what he belongs... yeah, it's a private affair, not easy though. But he didn't see any better effort Mozzie is giving for him. He sometimes think about Steketee too- the man who loved him once, he rejected. Now he feels a bit sad for him- maybe it was a bit bad how Christian rejected him before he could propose. Lots of drama then. And then Mozzie here, gets all the attentions and feelings together after spreading supportive hand to Christian. Maybe he didn't trust Steketee, he never compares them. Then a message popped up- 'I can't! Archie and his mom wanted to go for movie night so I'm- driving now. Pardon me.' And then here we go AGAIN. Christian giggles and paid his bill. He glances at the looking glass before making his way out of the restaurant and tell himself- 'Too good that you ordered your favourite single platter and finished before it got cold! Proud of you for not being wrong. AGAIN.' He rushed off.

I never said anything with the relationship I've been with, not beacuse it was a way wrong but only having spaces and few hours in a week couldn't make the difference I need. Way too better to not talk further with having much problems turning into miseries without even the hand of solutions.

The pressure was in me to hide all the emotions as we were teammates too. At the time of sleeping, laying down on my bed, had myself thinking, how'd I face you after break up cause we are still in same team. Not to far away, the choice made up with you is still far better than my entire.

There was a saying- You should to go them who loved you, not to them who you love. I should have! I always been a back-up option for you. Deep down I still feel, more ethan half of you is written for your wife. I was the third person showed up. It was my fault too. I don't want to see you in pain. If you tell me to leave I'd.

"You never tell one thing about Steketee," Mozzie says as Christian sipping his coffee, looks at him frankly. "Why? What do you want to hear?" He guts up. "Differences." Christian grins and widely answers, "He loves me more than YOU do." When Mozzie heared that his heart slowed its beat. Like What! He knew what he's gonna say. Christian pretends to see if he's showing any jealousy out. But nope! "You're looking beautiful tonight," Mozzie says while rotating his eyes on him. Then looks apart, chuckles. 'Why? Are you gonna sex with me tonight?' Christian thought. "Don't pump me up. Why are you laughing?" Christian yells disturbly. "I just invited you here cause we're having dinner tonight. But you [laughs] you dressed up like we're having date." Laughter filled around. Christian decreased his eyelids- What's even wrong with plain suit at night? But he fights back with a great pock, "I can't be that idiot who thinks he's having his imagination with a dumbass? No way." As Mozzie's laughter gone and Christian finds his rhythm. They didn't come here for fight. He just checks with his palms on his left side of coat if one tiny box is alright. He had dreams. Maybe tonight he's gonna tell Mozzie finally his desire.

"Ahm- I was going to tell you something, Christian." Mozzie begins right when Christian pulls the ring box out of his pocket, didn't let Mozzie know. "Hm." "I can't divorce my wife. And I tried hard to find any ways but nothing comes across. I'm so sorry, Christian that things are happening with you like that. I swear it is all my fault and do whatever you want. I just can't go more with you." He stopped, didn't even make eye contact with him. Christian feels tears in his eyes, smiling. Finally Mozzie made a decision! He just pulls the box back to his pocket and crossed his hand on the table. "Tell me you were forced somehow cause I loved you. That's your punishment, just tell the truth," Christian wipes his tears by his own cause nobody's gonna do it for him, not even his boyfriend siting before him, showed up each time cause they didn't even kiss! "Somehow." He told to Christian. Which is totally a truth! Christian loves him more than Mozzie does. More than he imagined after creating drama with Steketee. He loved Steketee too before starting their relationship, but not like Mozzie. He always created a different what Mozzie never asked for. But Mozzie couldn't find the way rather than he decided to stay.

Christian again wiped his eyes.

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