A destined encounter?

Day 6:

Dear Diary,

Today I had committed another great sin. I lied to my superiors and fled away from the training. Though I felt guilty, I felt twice as much happy after that. We went out for camping in the hills nearby under the disguise of outdoor training. Nature is really beautiful in it's own way. Though it's embarrassing I had to beg Simeon to stay for the whole day. I don't know if he enjoyed camping with me but at least on the outside he looked satisfied and happy.

Day 7:

If I want to describe today's day ,I guess I can say that it was ....unique? Today, I committed the sin if going out without permission once again. I wanted to see watch movies with Simeon so we booked a movie at night and sneaked out while the security was reforming (not like any present security in the world is capable of catching me). I really don't remember the last time I watched movie nor do I have any knowledge about good movies so I elt Simeon decide the movies for us. I regretted my decision since the movie picked by Simeon was a horror movie. I really couldn't watch the movie at all. However, it was alright since Simeon looked really refreshed and happy and by any chance if we manage to survive, I will never ever agree to watch the horror movie again ,even if Simeon begs me for it(hopefully?)

Day 8:

I really wish everyday is like this. Today, Simeon and I ditched the camp training and decided to stay in our dorms. We played a lot of games like cards,board games,pillowfight.etc. It really made me rethink the choice of running away together. However ,I know it more than anyone else what it will feel like to be my replacement and share my responsibilities. Even if it is only a wishful thinking,I really hope this mission is successful so that the children of the future generation . I really hope that peaceful days comes soon.

Day 9:

Today's day was oddly...comforting? I don't know why but I felt like a little child today and the next moment I saw Simeon my eyes started to get wet for some reason. I cried .... until I could no longer do so. I don't know how someon will see me or think about me after this but just for today, I am really grateful that he is the person I who heard my cries and understood me like a parent the whole day.

Day 10:

I am really disappointed in Simeon. However I am even more disappointed in myself. Why cant Simeon understand taht he doesn't has to do this with me!? He deserves to live a peaceful and joyous life . Yet he keeps smiling at me which makes me more angry with myself. Can't ge see that even if he abandons me ,I will be really happy about the fact that he is somewhere out there living his happy life!?He has already accepted his fate and I can't do anything about it anymore. I really am frustrated with myself.

Why won't he listen to me!

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